I spend the majority of my time either at work or in my bedroom. One would think that if I am going to spend hours in a particular place, that it would be relaxing, peaceful, organized, and beautiful. It’s like being married. Marriage is a commitment and no one enjoys a mate that is difficult to be around, aren’t attracted to, or creates chaos. At least not me. Yet, in spite of this, my office and home surroundings reflect just this. When I walk into my office, feelings of overwhelm, chaos, restriction, ugliness are right there welcoming me in. I want to quickly turn around and run back home. But wait, the same exact thing is waiting for me there. Is there no place sacred, serene, and vibrant enough for me to relax in, to let my creative energies flow?
Within the caterpillar lies a beautiful butterfly. Likewise, amidst the abundance of papers, dust, and clothes that is contained between the two spaces, lies two very sacred and joyful spaces. So now the process begins. It is time for me to enter the cocoon and allow the transformation to take place. I must spin myself in the threads of discipline, commitment, love, vulnerability and acceptance and enter the darkness that I have manifested physically as clutter. And although it will be dark on the inside and resistance and fear may rise up within me, I know that God’s light is shining down on me, facilitating the transformation process in Her own way. And I know that once I push my way through and release the confusion that, until today, has served as my safety net, not only will two beautiful spaces emerge so will a beautiful and joyous woman.
As I release the clutter in my life, I am also dismantling the beliefs, the thoughts, the fear, the resistance, the habits….that created the clutter. And as a result, I open myself and receive the new blessings that are just knocking at the door, gently saying, “Beloved, please let us in”. So yes, I welcome with open arms this opportunity for divine healing. The opportunity to spread my wings, fly and re-introduce myself to the Universe.
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