"Something amazing happens when we surrender and just love. We melt into another world, a realm of power already within us. The world changes when we change. The world softens when we soften. The world loves us when we choose to love the world."
— Excerpted from A Return to Love: Reflections on the Principles of A Course in Miracles
How you doing (in my Wendy Williams voice). Yes, it’s been a minute since I have written. So what have I been doing? Well, I’ve been spending time sorting out this thing called relationships. In particular, looking to create a relationship before I created one with the one that matters most, myself. Go figure. Now, I know that most of you probably already know that to be in relationship with another, you first have to be that which you seek. And yes, I knew this too. However, it was easier for me to seek validation externally versus pumping myself up. I was so afraid to see and be myself that I denied myself the greatest gift of all, Love. I had what I call the yo-yo or revolving door syndrome. I would attract amazing people into my life. People who saw the real me, an amazing woman. Yet, I rejected them because I didn’t think I measured up. Now based on the law of attraction, I know that that is not my real truth because I can’t attract something that I am not.
Out of a commitment to honor myself and stand as a woman, I am now on the path of spending time with me, putting me first. Not being afraid of the beautiful, sensual, powerful, radiant, wise woman that God created me to be. Oh, did I mention brilliant? (Hey, if you don’t toot your own horn, who will?). I am now on the path of getting to know myself….what I like, what I don’t like, what is my life’s vision/purpose, how do I desire to experience my relationships. And this is all of my relationships, not simply the one I desire to create for marriage purposes.
Tonight I had the wonderful opportunity to stand in choice. A choice to give unconditional love. Let me tell you, standing in choice is completely different when done from the place of no expectations, no fear, and no resistance. To be able to love someone that I just met. To love someone without expecting them to love me back or love me first. To love someone and see them intimately, looking in their eyes and seeing their soul which is only reflecting back to me who I am. Giving so much that I create this enormous space in my heart that is now capable of receiving love. Receiving my love.
This is the relationship that I desire and this is how I desire to experience my relationships. Loving myself so much that I have an abundance to share with others and giving so much love that I create the space to receive the abundance that is my love. (Give me a minute, got to breathe that in. Simply delicious!).
So here I am, creating a relationship with myself founded on intimacy (Into Me See). Seeing myself and being vulnerable so that others can see me. What kind of relationship are you creating and who are you first creating it with?
